There’s a lot going on in my life right now, a lot.
I know I’m in the wrong for a lot of it, but if it’s wrong… Why does it feel right? I always said I’d never be the person I have become. And sometimes looking in the mirror at myself I’m disappointed in what I see. But other times, I’m not.
Yeah, I feel bad for what I’ve done and the people that I have hurt. But at the same time, regardless of the circumstances they should be happy for me. I’ve made mistakes, but that only makes me human. I know I could have prevented them, but I didn’t, and that’s where I am now - living and dealing with my mistakes. And the people that I have surrounding me right now are really helping me thru this mess, and honestly, I couldn’t be happier. Yeah I wish things wouldn’t have played out like they did… But that’s just the way it happened.
I slipped into a moment of weakness and lost one of my best friends bc I couldn’t say no. But to be honest the only reason I did it was to see if me and him could just be friends, to make sure there were no left over feelings. And there isn’t. She doesn’t understand that. She just thinks I’m a fucked up person, and you know what? Maybe I am. But there is nothing I can do about what has already been done except live with it and accept it. And I just wish she could as well.
My second choice also effected someone I cared deeply about. I got in a relationship with my best friend’s ex… I know that sounds terrible. I know. BUT it’s not all that bad, and here’s my reasoning as to why I believe that: IF she really loved and cared for this ex that she had a year ago… When he came back into her life wouldn’t she have dropped everything and went back? Wouldn’t she have let go of her new boyfriend that she was also “in love with”? Wouldn’t they have made up for lost time and fixed all the problems? Wouldn’t she have not been leading the ex and the current boyfriend on and just went with her heart? Yes, she would have done all of that. But she didn’t. She was playing with 2 peoples hearts. And he confided in me and we talked about her, and my ex frequently. And somewhere in the mix of all that feelings were exchanged. And I tried to hide it, and bury it, and ignore it. And I was doing damn good until…
She betrayed me and my family. She let out false information, and I can’t believe that. I forgive her for that, bc I’m a very forgiving person. But I still can’t believe it after everything me and my family did for her.
I know I hurt her, actually, I know I hurt both of them…
But with the first one, the person I slipped into weakness with was my ex, and the girl took him to just win. She made me loose my first love to play a winning game. I lost everything when she did that…
And the second, looks like we both betrayed each other. So I guess you could say we are even.
We both are.
Paul Wesley actually fucking wipes this fan’s tears from her eyes
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when someone gets a lyric reference you made and then continues with the next line